Get your house in order

Ugh, I am bored!!!

I am holding myself back from the cliff on a daily basis of breaking down and just screaming "GIVE ME MORE". But do I really deserve more? The more I think about it, I do and I don't.

I grew up in a household devout to the word of God. Yes, we are a Christian based household. But not overly Christian and definitely not void of faith, religion, love and the word of God. So I have been taught on how to pray, why we go to church, why we serve Jesus Christ. These are things that have been instilled inside of me.

My husband's family is the same way in the most beautiful way possible. One of the things I loved most about him was that he came from a family of women and men who definitely knew what it was to love, serve and honor the Lord. That comforted me in knowing that his family has such morals, values and knew God. It made my husband a better "prospect" when I was thinking "can i marry this man"

But I am human, I am not perfect although some may think that I THINK i am perfect. For 2 years I went to church every Sunday, prayed faithfully, served God in a way I never served him before. This was when I was laid off from my previous job and was so confused as to WHY this was happening, and I needed direction from God. I went to church so much I got my 2 good friends involved so much to join the church as well.

I've fallen off. I haven't "given up" on God but I definitely haven't been giving him my all. Showing up for him not just on Sundays but everyday. I am so sad about this aspect in my life. When things seem to go wrong, I pray. But why am I not praying when everything is going right? Just saying "Praise the Lord" and "Thank you Jesus" is not enough. {for me anyways} There has to be more!!!

So do I deserve more when I am not giving more to Christ??? I have no idea only God can answer that question. I miss him in my life, I miss the feeling I receive when I leave church and have just been blessed by our Bishop in the word of God. I miss learning more about him and letting him invade my life in totality.

I have to change this and I have to do it NOW. We aren't living in the beginning we're definitely towards the end and as my mother's Reverend says every Sunday morning "get your house in order, because he's coming real soon"

Has anyone else lost their way?

March Birchbox!!!

Hey Gorgeous!!! {Yes I am talking to YOU}

I'm a product junkie! I blame it on my years of working at Bath & Body Works. Every fragrance, every candle, every sugar scrub face cream nail polish you name it ADHARI HAD IT.

I had so much that I would have "inventory" clear out sessions in my room. I'd invite my friends over and pretty much tell them to have at it with all of my beauty products I no longer wanted.

Birchbox definitely fuels this inner junkie symptom I have.



For $10 a month you get a box sent to you with 4-6 sample sized products. This week I received my box for March and wanted to share what was inside with you all.

Annick Goutal - perfume sample

Color Club - nail laquer in Age of Aquarius

Jouer - Luminizing moisture tint

One Love Organics - Skin Savior Waterless Beauty Balm

Orofluido - Beauty Elixir {hair treatment scented of vanilla and almonds}

Tea forte - antioxidant amplifier teas
Cucumber Mint
Cherry Marzipan
Honey Yuzu



I just received an email that my April box is already on it's way!!!! So excited to see what's inside that one!

Another foodie post

2 weeks ago I posted that I would be submitting the recipe for this Sunday dinner I prepared....and needless to say. I never did!

Back in Feb 12 Food Network Magazine released the chocolate issue. You guessed it, filled to the brim with recipes with chocolate/cocoa.

I was really intrigued by this one recipe of COCOA-RUBBED STEAK WITH BACON WHISKEY GRAVY. Sounds really intense but it was actually quite delicious.



for the steak

Ingredients
For the steak:

1 tablespoon unsweetened cocoa powder
2 teaspoons sweet paprika
1/4 teaspoon smoked paprika
1 teaspoon packed light brown sugar
1/4 teaspoon cayenne pepper
Kosher salt
3 1-pound New York strip steaks (about 1 1/2 inches thick)
1 tablespoon unsalted butter

For the gravy:

4 strips bacon, diced
1 leek (white and light green parts only), finely chopped
1 tablespoon all-purpose flour
1/2 cup whiskey
3 cups low-sodium chicken broth
2 bay leaves
1/2 cup heavy cream
1 tablespoon unsalted butter
2 tablespoons chopped fresh parsley
Kosher salt and freshly ground pepper
Directions

Make the steak: Mix the cocoa powder, both paprikas, brown sugar, cayenne and 2 teaspoons salt; rub on the steak and bring to room temperature, 30 minutes.

Make the gravy: Cook the bacon in a large skillet over medium heat, stirring, until crisp, about 5 minutes. Remove to paper towels with a slotted spoon; set aside. Add the leek to the drippings and cook until soft, about 3 minutes. Add the flour and cook, stirring, 1 minute.

Remove the skillet from the heat. Add the whiskey, then return to medium heat; if the alcohol ignites, let the flames die out. Bring to a simmer and cook, stirring occasionally, until slightly thickened, about 2 minutes. Add the chicken broth and bay leaves. Bring to a boil over medium-high heat and cook until the mixture is reduced by one-quarter, about 8 minutes. Whisk in the heavy cream and simmer, stirring occasionally, until the gravy coats a spoon, about 7 minutes. Stir in the butter, reserved bacon and parsley; season with salt and pepper. Keep warm.

Heat a large cast-iron skillet over high heat, about 3 minutes. Add 1 tablespoon butter; when it melts, add the steak and sear until a dark crust forms, about 8 minutes per side. Transfer to a cutting board and let rest 5 minutes. Season with salt. Slice and serve with the gravy.

Of course I couldn't make this meal without a dessert so I took a stab at a Flourless Chocolate Cake



The cake was so incredibly moist and dense {does that even make sense?} but you needed a whole 2 glasses of milk to wash it down. It was WAY too chocolatey for our tastes buds.